My reason for registering this class has to do a great deal with jackhammers and hummingbirds. Last summer, I was listening to an interview with Oprah and Elizabeth Gilbert and had a breakthrough: I am a hummingbird.
In the interview, Gilbert explained how she used to preach about passions, following your passion, surrendering to your passion, passion, passion, passion. Then one day she got an email where a follower expressed deep anguish about not having a passion, and based on the way Gilbert described it, felt she would know it if she had one. Gilbert eventually changed her platform from following your passion to following your curiosity. She now hypothesizes that people are in one of two groups: jackhammers and hummingbirds.
Jackhammers have a great, singular, focused passion (like Gilbert and writing). Hummingbirds are those of us who float from activity to activity and interest to interest and may or may not identify as having a passion. The secret to being your authentic hummingbird self is to follow your curiosity, and maybe you find a passion, or maybe you just learn along the way.
I made a commitment to myself during the recent course registration period to be a hummingbird and register for whatever class I thought sounded the most interesting. Don’t look at reviews, don’t worry about the workload, just let curiosity lead me. This led me straight to this class.
And tonight, after spending over an hour trying to register for Twitter and change my name from “Courtne41234309” to something more sensical, a piece of me wondered if I made the right choice. “No” I tell myself. “I can do this. I can learn Twitter. I can write a blog. I can learn how to learn about technology.”
My expectations are that this class will challenge me and push me out of my comfort zone, but that I’ll come out the better for it. I’ve been adding blog post ideas to my whiteboard the past week, and this is my opportunity to be forced to learn about all of these hummingbird interests of mine and do something creative with them. This is my practice round.
Back in December, I got an opportunity to contribute a Q1 blog post for the biggest trade association in my industry about my experience designing a new customer acquisition UI/UX. I’ve been sitting on my post for a few weeks. Publishing a blog has felt like such a raw and vulnerable experience. That hesitancy to come to the forefront has been at odds with my desire to share what I’ve learned and be a thought-leader in my industry.
And so tonight, I practice here with you and give myself a high five for publishing the first blog post of my life.
And by the way, I did end up eventually finding my passion. It was so obvious it smacked me in the face. Learning is my great passion. Maybe I have a little jackhammer in me after all.